Today the seventh day of the year, the seventh day of my blog and the seventh day of my new exciting life (quite similar to my old exciting life, so far!).
Except that it’s not.
Today I am 2.1 kgs lighter then I was a week ago.
I didn’t call this post “Weight In Wednesday” even though I was tempted too. I don’t really want to have a regular internal analysis of my dieting and weight, because although I enjoy reading/watching other peoples weight loss journey I’m just not convinced that I’ve got enough to offer readers about the how-to-lose-weight. Because I’m your typical tragic yo-yo dieter. I’ve tried and failed and tried and failed and tried again. And failed again. Now I am (or I was last week) heavier than I’ve ever been.
So I can’t really help you with how. But one week in, this has been the easiest attempt I’ve done in a long time. What’s different to last time? I can tell you what I’m not doing. I’m not counting carbs or calories, or buying my meals prepared and frozen. I haven’t even done any more exercise than normal (I have an ongoing foot injury that prevents me from doing much in the way of walking/running/dancing around to terrible pop music).
I’ve just eaten less. Admittedly, it’s a far bit less. But that’s all I’m doing.
The most surprising thing is that despite having a small breakfast, a smoothie for lunch, a small dinner and 2 or 3 snacks throughout the day, I’m not hungry. There isn’t anything missing from my day, and I’m not spending my hours thinking about my next meal. I have a couple of theories about this. Firstly, this week I have increased my fruit and vegetable intake dramatically. By including whole grains in my breakfast, fresh fruit and vegetables in my smoothie and then lots of vegetables in my dinner means that although I’m eating much less, the food I am eating is fueling my body more.
My other theory is a lot less scientific based and more of hunch. I think I’m more scared then before.
I’ve been overweight for about 6 years now, but I’ve never really been sick or unhealthy. My ongoing foot thing, plus some other issues that have come up during 2014 have rattled me. I need to change, and quickly. I don’t want to be too sick to take care of my girls, or too heavy to be an involved, fun, part of their lives. I don’t want my husband to be left alone to raise them if something terrible happens to me.
I scared for my future, but I do have the belief that I can change things. My body and my emotions are playing along nicely at the moment, but I don’t want to be so unrealistic as to think it will be this easy the whole time. Because it won’t. It’s all about progress, however that appears, with small goals as a step forward and trying to mix things up a bit.
Today is a bit of a challenge. Perhaps my first big one of the year. Today, my girls and I are having lunch with some friends at the Yarra Valley Chocolaterie and Ice Creamery. Am I going to eat something off the Menu? Yes. Is it going to be sweet and unhealthy? Most likely. But I’m choosing not to over think it. Instead, I’m going to plan my other meals to consider that calorie intake that my lunch will involve. I’m going to drink more water throughout the day. And I might try and get out for a walk before we go. Basically, I’m not going to panic. And the reason for that is that this needs to be a long term, lifestyle that I live by. I could do a diet for 12 weeks, control my calorie intake for that period of time and lose 10kgs, but I’ve done that before. All my previous attempts have always had a time limit and an end date. I think I thought that by doing it this way I would push through, give up luxury foods because it was just 4 (or 8 or 12) weeks of my life. In reality it isn’t just 12 weeks of my life. It’s my whole life. I need to eat well everyday, forever. Not always for weight loss, but at sometimes for maintenance and always for health. I guess I mean to start as I intend to continue. Or something. There are going to be days out, weddings, parties, chocolate. It’s not a bandwagon to fall off, it’s just eating. I’m going to out and eat sensibly, and not over think it.
Or at least that’s the plan.
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Have a fab Wednesday!